I feel you everywhere today. I feel you breathing life into me, expanding my lungs and chest. I physically feel the weight lifting. I feel you from the inside out, just like I did when I carried you. A beam of light, a warm glow, a deep breathe. You taught me so much when you were here. But I am getting the feeling you are just getting started with me. I continue to learn from you, more than ever before. Everything looks different today. We have a beautiful picture wall of our family. Today, I stopped and looked at it for a very long time.I walk by this wall 94 times a day, not stopping to look at it. Like many things in our home, we become so accustomed to their presence that we no longer notice them. I admired your little face and Chloe's beautiful eyes and smile. I drank in your Dad's good looks. I saw myself with you. I felt my protection over you in these pictures.
Letting go of control........ What a terrifying amazing thing. Thanks for helping me do that, Austin.
Thank you to all the people that continue to facebook message me. It's as if each of you reach out to me a the perfect time, with the right words. I cant help but think that is also not a coincidence.
